Happy mothers day

Dear, It's been a while since I've written to you. Hope you can feel happy for me since it probably means I'm getting better. Yet on this day, I can't help remembering the first time you collapsed. I bought my first gps device and insists that I tag along your lunch appt at compass point just to test out the gps. Thank goodness for that since I was around and able to do something when you suddenly collapse on the wheel on our way home. Back then, I thought that was it. Even though you woke up after 10 min, your situation wasn't optimistic so I was prepared for the worst. Yet I told you to be brave and not to give up. I was glad that you listened and in the end, we were able to enjoy another 3 year together, and even had little Evan. Why did you not wake up the second time? I was talking to you endlessly for hours to tell you to not give up and quickly wake up. Did you not hear me? Or did you feel that life was too tough and it's easier to just forget about it. Did you forget about the rest of us that needs you? I recently bought a DVD on children songs for Evan. There's this song on separation anxiety called "my mummy comes back". It keeps repeating the phrase "my mummy comes back. She always comes back. She never will forget me". The video is really heart warming yet I'm sad cos Evan can never experience it for his mummy. I hope his daddy can be a adequate substitute so that he won't feel the difference. You've not come into my dreams for a while, dear. Pls come. I really missed you. I love you.